I’m generally interested in all things witchy. I can’t admit to being a Pagan/Wiccan in the truest sense of the word, but I have been known to dabble in candlemagick and tarot from time to time. Does that make me a witch? It certainly makes me a Solitary – one who has their own belief system that includes some magick. I was (at one time) pretty good at tarot – that is, reading the cards as a whole, rather than being expert at knowing every potential meaning and symbol of every card. I once gave a surprisingly accurate prediction, based on completely mis-reading a certain card. It shows (to me at least) how much of tarot is based on instinct.
My problem – and that is what makes me a Solitary – is that I abhor any kind of fanaticism. I go to church and find what was once a very comfortable Catholicism has become evangelical and a little too happy-clappy for me. People have added so much to what I know to be the core faith (without any basis in scripture) – gestures, genuflecting at the slightest provocation (communion), raising your hands to God during the Lord’s Prayer, and higher during “for thine is the kingdom, the power …”. These mean nothing to me, so I don’t do it, but I do feel out of place at times for not participating. In fact, where I feel most comfortable is sitting with the band/choir on holidays, able to participate only at a minimum level impeded by my horn in my hands. The dogma has left me, and with the conservative leaning of the church over the past 40 years, it leaves me further behind.
It is more than just Roman Catholicism, of course. Any happy-clappy religion disgusts me, including hard-core Paganism. I don’t celebrate the Pagan holidays – I don’t know what many of them stand for, if truth be told. All I do know is that many Christian (and other monotheistic) religions base their ritual on some of these holidays – Passover and Easter are around the Vernal Equinox. Christmas and Hanukkah are around the Winter Solstice. Ritual is usually based around breaking of bread and drinking of wine, fruits of the harvest. Coincidence? Hell, no!
I celebrate the moon, sun and cosmos, and I prefer to worship (if that is what you call it) at a more elemental level, communing with the spirits (or spiritual forces) directly. No matter how one dresses it up, that is what religion does at its most basic level. I believe we are here for a reason – for a higher purpose, as it were – and that our universe has some sort of intelligent design, perhaps not of a supreme being (or beings), but of that force of spirit or natural law (my single God/Goddess). For me, he/she is a union of genders – the spark of creation, the big bang. That spirit flows in all of us, everything, sentient or not. Credo in unum Spiritum.
The universe is a complex place, and we are all part of its continuum.