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I’ve been in a funny mood yesterday and so far today, sort of like the weather, which is just gray and blah. Yet, I feel a fire within me ready to explode, hence my haiku about anger: Light and Dark. I’m not angry at someone in particular, or even angry at all. I just feel volatile, like Nitro. Shake me and I’ll be something you weren’t expecting, and maybe don’t want.

Now, that isn’t necessarily a bad thing. It could spur me into manic inspiration, or burn me up in flames of creativity. Do I trust it? Nor should you.

And I don’t trust the card of the day:

4 of Wands. Completion.

Celebration, joy, homecoming, relaxation.

One must start something to complete it. My outburst may start something, but my projects are far too big to complete in a single day. Celebration, Joy? Well, the finals of the Women’s Football World Cup are today, and maybe that is an indicator or the outcome. I’m not overly invested, as I’ve watched only the semi-finals and will watch the finals. (I couldn’t bear to watch England lose to Sweden. I could see it coming.)

Take a deep breath.

10 thoughts on “Moody

      • Kalliope July 7, 2019 / 11:11 am

        Sippy cup, girl in a martini glass.

  1. Kalliope July 7, 2019 / 11:10 am

    Btw, I… don’t see the same correlation in this instance. In terms of the card. Foundations to be laid with/in company. Team work/collaboration begets the creation. Whether it is an outlined framework, or the prototype product, the beginning and end (open or close) transitions are volatile times anyway, as the world shifts to ready itself for the next change.

    • thecultofanne July 7, 2019 / 11:30 am

      I actually left out collaboration from the meaning. Yes, it is there, but looking at my projects, most of the work is done solo. For the piece I’m writing, I’ve already met with the performer (to determined the framework), and she won’t be involved again until I have significant work to show her, hopefully in September. I didn’t think it was relevant in this instance.

      There is always the volatility of the stable 4 tipping over into 5. (Strife) or too much of a much-ness. That, perhaps, is the volatility of what I feel today.

      • Kalliope July 7, 2019 / 12:30 pm

        Stagnation perhaps. Frustration at (lack of) progress. It’s all work and no play. How about doing a project for fun.

      • thecultofanne July 7, 2019 / 1:10 pm

        Projects for fun seems to be all l’m doing at the moment.

      • Kalliope July 7, 2019 / 1:40 pm

        Hahaha. Lucky one. I start stuff or say I will, then I never follow through. Ugh. I barely ever get anything up off the ground

  2. thecultofanne July 7, 2019 / 1:45 pm

    I am the great procrastinator. I always make deadlines, but I have a habit of planning everything so that I only just finish on the day. I need the fire up my arse to make everything happen.

    • Kalliope July 7, 2019 / 3:22 pm

      Procrastinators by night or day, we chase shiny thingys like blinking lights. Jangle keys and smash ideas, oh! ah! IT’S A THINGY! Hey! Imagine I’m singing dancing and HO! IT’S A CABARET! Hey! I’m singing this thingy in my head, I’m glad you’re so very open minded.

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